What if I’m Wrong?: Navigating the Waves of Fear and FailureSample

I cried the first time I realized that God doesn’t need me. I think somewhere in my mind, I had thought that God would one day bless me because he needed me.

Have you ever felt like that? Like you know that the motives of your own heart are pure, so you think maybe God needs people like you? He needed people with integrity whom he could trust. He needed good hearts who would be obedient to him. He needed thought leaders, or medical professionals, or sports players, or lawyers, or business people, or content creators, or writers who weren’t in it for money but were in it truly because of passion.

It was painful when it occurred to me that God didn’t actually need me to do what God was already very much doing pretty well without me. I get that this is a good thing, and I was happy for God, but I was also becoming disillusioned with myself. Where do you fit on a team that’s already stacked?

One of the things I have learned is that our life is not about us as much as it’s about other people. It has dawned on me that God doesn’t just want one of us who is really special to do his will in this world. God wants each of us, who are all uniquely special, to collectively and individually do his will. To leave millions of different footprints.

Yes, there will be someone more gifted and special than you. But God doesn’t need you to be more special than everyone else. He needs you to be in the right room, at the right time, for the right person who needs support.

Maybe God doesn’t need us. But maybe God wants us to realize how much we need God. We need God to guide our footsteps. To lead us to the right people. And God needs us to remember just how deeply he loves, cherishes, and values each one of us.

PRAYER: Lord Jesus, thank you that while you might not need me in the way I envision, you want me as a part of your family, so much so that you died not only for the world (John 3:16) but for me. Would you deepen my awareness of and gratitude for this today? Amen.