Isn't it amazing that the very thing you "preach" or talk about, is the very thing you need the most? I so felt that way when I wrote "Free" and it quickly became my life's anthem. The revelation of freedom is one that we must renew our mind to daily, because everything in the world around us will attempt to bind and control us again. We can get robbed from without even knowing it, when God's best was waiting on us all along.
Have you ever been in a difficult and disappointing place in your life? That was me the day I wrote this song. I can remember it so clearly, I went into my room, the lights were low and I just sat in tears mentally viewing the wreckage of my life. I was so disappointed in myself, I had been running towards the same dream since I was a little girl and I wasn't where I wanted to be in my career, I wasn't happy with myself and I felt so internally ugly.
To add insult to injury, I had to walk away from a relationship that went from bad to worse and I was just at the end of myself and what I could do about it. I remember opening my Bible and saying "Father God, I see all through Your word that more is available and I am not experiencing it. I want to be free from this, free from myself. Help!"
I think we all have had marking moments like this, but before I knew it, the song rolled out and at the end of it, was this revelation that I so desperately needed and cling to daily and it's this:
Instead of being the girl that got her identity and worth out of being the perfect little Christian, or her career being exactly where she thought it should be, or being in shape, or having the right relationship (fill in the blank. You get the idea.) Instead, I am choosing to be the girl that wakes up to the finished work of Christ daily.
To the fact that I can't add or take away from the sacrifice that Jesus made for me, once and for all. I awake in His likeness as His child (Psalm 17:15), regardless of my last performance.
The greater one is alive and working through me, it is "no longer I that lives, but Christ in me. The life I live in the flesh, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. I do not set aside the grace of God, for if righteousness could be gained through the law, Christ died for nothing.” -Galatians 2:20-21
As my Dad would say, "how much does a dead man struggle? He doesn't."
Today, let's not try to be something or attempt to make our own way that only leaves us wanting. Today, let's discover who we really are through Christ and because of what He has already done, "we have been made free."