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Day 4: When the Story Is Yours

Today, I want to speak from a place that is deeply personal. I want to speak about my father, and in doing so, honor his life and the way he left.

I remember the day we received the call. It was the 23rd of April, 2025. I was on my way to work with my sister, and we were on the phone with our mother, who was on vacation in Europe at the time. While we were speaking with her, another call came in from my father’s phone. We ended the call with our mom to answer it, expecting to hear his voice. Instead, it was one of the security guards. He told us that our father had collapsed and they did not know what to do.

In that moment, everything shifted. None of us lived in the same state as our parents, so there was no one immediately present to respond. We began making calls, trying to reach family members who could get to him quickly. It felt distant and urgent at the same time. My father had always been strong. He had no major health issues, no underlying conditions that would suggest something like this. He was active, steady, and consistent. The news did not fit the life we knew him to be living.

That same day, my eldest brother traveled to be with him. By the next day, the 24th, there were signs of improvement. He was eating and responding, and we began to feel some relief. But on the 25th, everything changed. He slipped into unconsciousness, and that was when the weight of it truly hit. That was the moment desperation set in. I remember praying for over 6 hours without stopping, pleading with God for his life. We were all praying, crying, holding on to hope with everything we had. It was not quiet or composed. It was intense, urgent, and full of longing. On the 26th, we were told he was brain dead, and yet we still believed. We held on, trusting God for a miracle even when the situation seemed final.

We began traveling to be with him. My mother returned from her trip, and we all gathered at the hospital. Seeing him in that state broke something in us. Still, we held on. On the 28th, in the morning, a doctor mentioned a small possibility of recovery, and for a brief moment, hope rose again. We smiled for the first time in days. But later that same day, after we left the hospital to eat at home, we received the news that he had passed.

It was the end of that fight, the moment everything became real. There were no final words, preparation, or closure in the way we would have wanted. It ended suddenly, leaving us with memories, questions, and a silence that took time to understand.

Yet even in that, God remained present.

In the days that followed, we saw a different kind of faithfulness. People showed up for us in ways we did not expect. Our home was filled with support. The weight of the funeral was carried by others. We were not left to navigate it alone. In the middle of our grief, there was provision, there was help, and there was a quiet reminder that we were not abandoned.

I also saw something else. The fact that God did not answer our prayer the way we wanted did not mean that He failed. That realization did not come instantly, but it became clearer with time. My father had lived a life devoted to God. He was a pastor, a man committed to Scripture. Even on the morning he collapsed, he had been reading his Bible and writing in his journal. His life pointed to God, and even in his passing, that testimony remained.

There are still questions I do not have answers to. There are moments I wish had gone differently. But what has remained steady is this: God has not changed. His character has not shifted because of my experience. In the midst of grief, He has sustained us. He did not allow us to be consumed by sorrow. He carried us through it.

Losing my father has reshaped something in me. It has made eternity more real. It has stirred a deeper desire to live a life that is pleasing to God, not out of fear, but out of understanding. There is a hope that remains, not rooted in wishful thinking, but in the promise of what lies beyond this life.

We miss him. That has not changed. But alongside that longing is a quiet assurance that this is not the end of the story.

Reflections

Take time to sit with your own story.

• Can you remember the moment you received the news of your loss?
• Where were you, and what did you feel in those first moments?
• How did the days that followed unfold for you?
• Who showed up for you, and in what ways did their presence help?
• Are there parts of that experience you have not yet fully processed?

Write it down. Let yourself remember. Let yourself be honest.

Prayer

Lord, You see every story of loss, including the parts we struggle to put into words. Thank You for being present, even in moments that feel incomplete and unresolved. I pray for every person carrying the weight of sudden grief that they will not be overwhelmed by it. Strengthen their hearts and help them to trust You, even when they do not understand. Let Your presence be real to them in their quiet moments, and lead them gently into healing. In Jesus’ name. Amen.