The Unwanted Firstsਨਮੂਨਾ

Purpose

The "purpose" is a hard pill to swallow when muddling your way through all the stages of grief and then weaving in and out of them all over again in that first year. I can remember thinking at the beginning of our many losses, "There is no sense to any of this! None of this could possibly have a purpose that is going to help anybody!" That was my grief brain talking to me. And yes! It's truly a real thing. Grief brain/fog is a given when encountering a major loss or losses. There have been studies to show that the brain and nervous system undergo actual damage from the intense pain of a close and significant loss of someone/people you love. I am personally still in the process of brain and nervous system regeneration from all the damage that was done to me.

The intensity and length of grief in that first year can differ for each individual, and no one can legitimately tell you that you "should be over it by now." Ignore that kind of stuff. It's a ploy from the enemy to keep you down and most likely coming out of a mouth that has not yet experienced heavy loss for themselves, yet. Many were Job's "unfriendly" friends, and here we are today, with many more than that out there.

God has a purpose for you in this season. He wants to unite all things in Heaven and on Earth! (Eph 1:10) We have been given the Hope of Heaven that we will once again be reunited with those who go before us who chose Christ as Savior again in that next life. That next chapter will be written in all its glory in a way that we can't even begin to imagine or fathom! God had a plan and a purpose for each of us before we were even formulated in our mother's womb! (Psa. 139:16)

If you know Scripture, you know we are to "expect" trials and tribulations. Following Christ comes with a heavy but rewarding price. When you can just lean into His ways which are higher than yours and trust His heart when you can't trace His hand...then you will find purpose in the journey along the way. Just keep searching, seeking, discovering, growing, and purpose will find you! (1 Peter 4:12-19)