Day 2: Letting Go of the Weight You Carry

“And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.”

—Romans 8:28 ESV

Grief shouts out all the “what ifs.” After Shiloh died, those questions haunted me.

• What if I had said something different?
• What if I had seen the signs sooner?
• What if I had prayed harder, done more, or just been…better?

The questions are heavy. They feel important. But they’re not meant to be carried forever.

In the early days of my own grief, I found myself replaying moments, wondering if I had failed. My thoughts turned inward, searching for someone to blame—and I became the target. But shame is not from God, and guilt does not bring healing. The God who knows our suffering doesn’t sit in heaven pointing fingers. He comes close to us with open arms.

Few of us really like to read Job’s story—the man who loses everything—his family, his health, and his sense of stability. When he’s torn apart in sorrow, the Bible says he fell to the ground and worshiped (Job 1:20). He didn’t understand. He didn’t get answers. But he chose to release his pain into the presence of God.

That’s where I want to live too—not holding onto what I cannot fix, but trusting the One who promises to work even this for good.

Letting go doesn’t mean we’re forgetting. Instead, we’re saying, “God, I don’t know why, but I know You.”

Reflect

What weight of regret or responsibility have you been carrying? What would it feel like to place it in God’s hands today?

Pray

Father, You know the questions that weigh on me. I lay them at Your feet. I trust You with what I don’t understand. Help me release guilt and receive Your grace—grace that covers every gap. Amen.