Broken Pieces: Repairing the Damage of InfidelitySýnishorn

“What am I doing?” “How did I get here?” “What was I thinking?” “How will I ever recover from this?” These were some of the questions that came to mind the day I finally came to myself and realized I had drifted so far away from the man God called me to be. Along with feeling the guilt and shame of my infidelity, I was also embarrassed, afraid and paranoid. All of these emotions were a result of my careless decision to cheat on my wife and my decision to break the covenant not only in my marriage but also my covenant with God. Words can’t begin to describe the deep hurt I caused my wife and the way my heart sank when I realized how crushed she was because of my poor choices and selfishness. Knowing that I was the reason for the tears falling from her face and I was the one who ripped her heart to shreds, obliterating her trust and confidence in me, caused me to sink deep into the abyss of despair and depression. But what right did I have to sulk and have a pity party for myself since I was the one who made this mess in the first place? There was no one else to blame but myself. This was the lowest point in my life. I hit rock bottom. No amount of money, success or notoriety could ever get me out of the hole I dug for myself. It was at this critical point in my life that I realized I needed to surrender to Jesus and let Him truly become Lord of my life. Doing it my way was not working at all. In my own logic, I thought I could get away with the lies, cheating, the secrets and the double-life I was living but it was only a matter of time before it would catch up to me and I would be brought to the place of total surrender. By the power of the Holy Spirit and through the saving grace of Jesus Christ, I laid it all at the foot of the cross and gave my heavy burden of sin and shame to Him. He began a new work in my life and transformation started taking place.

God gave me a second chance that I didn’t deserve. He surrounded me with mentors who helped me set boundaries and held me accountable. I began reading God’s word and applying it to my daily life. Prayer became my lifeline and as a result, there was a shift in my marriage. God renewed my covenant with my wife and healed a lot of deep wounds in our relationship. So I made a deal with God and that’s why you’re reading this devotional plan today. I promised God that if He gave me a second chance, I would be a witness for Him and unashamedly tell others about how I was drowning in a lifestyle of infidelity, deception and iniquity and how God saved my life and my marriage as well as the practical steps it took to create healthy habits of being faithful to my wife, living a guilt-free lifestyle, daily devotion to God through prayer, applying His word and surrounding myself with other men of God who have a desire to do the same.

You may be a man who knows exactly what it feels like to harbor secrets because you’ve been unfaithful to your wife. You might be someone who’s not yet married but needs advice on how to avoid the pitfalls of infidelity and adultery. Regardless of what side of the tracks you’re on, my prayer is that this reading plan would be a roadmap to recovery for you or a preventative means to keep you from making the same mistakes countless men worldwide have made that destroyed not only their reputation but also their marriage and their family.

NEXT STEPS: Set aside intentional time during the day to seek God in prayer as you begin this journey. I assure you there will be spiritual warfare and distractions because the devil knows once you allow God to fully have your heart, he will no longer have residency in your life. Be encouraged. The best is yet to come.