Unlimited Motherhood: Overcome 12 Limits That Overwhelm and Conflict Our HeartsНамуна

Title: Motherhood and the Things We Can’t Fix

As I sit here typing this devotional, I can hear my daughter sobbing behind her bedroom door. My daughter Mara has autism and sometimes has meltdowns for no apparent reason. These meltdowns often morph into inconsolable crying.

The one thought that keeps running through my mind is this: “I can’t fix this.” And that is the part that kills me.

As special needs parents, we have exhausted every resource and tried every therapy to help Mara live a better life. Yet sometimes there is nothing we can do. When she gets this worked up, she demands I leave the room, often shoving me out the door.

In these moments, I feel like I’m failing as a mom. The enemy whispers in my ear that I’m not doing enough. I imagine God up in heaven writing my report card, and in the parenting department I’m scoring a D+ on a good day.

But throughout my parenting journey, Jesus is helping me redefine what love is. I thought love fixed everything, made everything better. I thought love kissed boo-boos and solved problems. But sometimes love just remains in the pain and holds someone when there are no answers this side of eternity.

A few years ago, during one of my hardest moments with my daughter, I felt the Holy Spirit speak to my heart, “Jess, I never called you to fix your child, I called you to love her.”

And that my friend, is more than enough.