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Red Flags and Silent Cries

Looking back, I can see the red flags I missed or ignored. At the time, I was young and scared. I tried desperate ways to get my husband’s attention. Inside, I was a little girl crying out to be seen and loved. But instead of comfort, I heard harsh words: “You’re not woman enough,” “Why can’t you be more like her?” “Maybe you shouldn’t have married.” Those words cut deep, and I began to shut down emotionally. I stopped sharing my feelings, afraid of making things worse. I bottled up my pain, isolating myself in silence.

In my loneliness, I started writing letters to God every day. “God, forgive me. Teach me how to love my husband better. Help me be a better woman.” I didn’t realize then that God was listening, watching over me, and protecting me even when I felt invisible. Slowly, He gave me words of hope that I turned into a song-a reminder that He sees my pain and carries me through it.

Psalm 121 became my anchor: “I lift up my eyes to the hills-where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord.” Even when I doubted God’s presence, I kept looking to Him, trusting He would bring me through the darkness. If you’re feeling invisible or unheard today, know that God sees your pain and hears your silent cries. He is your refuge and strength.