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Losing a loved one

When my mother passed away I thought the pain was never going to end. I thought the tears would never stop falling down my face. I thought the sleepless nights would last forever. Losing her was by far one of the most difficult things I’ve had to experience. I remember holding her in my arms as the tears rolled down my face onto hers. All I could do was cry at the moment. It reminded me of a mother giving birth and seeing her child for the first time. In my instance, it was the child who was losing the mother that had birthed them. Holding her in my arms just like she held me. Tears came down my face just like tears came down my mother's when I was born.

I was lost, hurt, confused, and in disbelief. My mother was my everything. She was the one person who would sacrifice and do anything for me. Having to adjust to life without her has been a challenge I must say, despite losing her I still find myself standing with my head held high. All the times I was hurting God was healing me. He was with me the entire time. Though at the moment I couldn’t feel it or see it, I now realize how God was with me every step of the way.

I can’t sit here and pretend like I have the formula for being able to move on from losing a loved one. Everyone grieves differently, and everyone's helping process is longer than others. One thing I can tell you is that God will heal your broken heart. God will be with you every step of the way. Even if you feel alone or feel like nobody understands, God does.