Blessed Are the Spiraling: 7-Days to Finding True Significance When Life Sends You Spiralingნიმუში

When Old Wounds Drive New Spirals

Most of us can point to a “line in the sand” moment—before and after. For me, it was a season in my childhood of family trauma, my parents’ marriage collapsing, my mom sinking into depression, and a neighbor introducing me to pornography. At the very moment my heart needed safety, stability, and comfort, it found a counterfeit version of all three in secret images.

I didn’t realize it at the time, or for a long time into adulthood, but I was trying to medicate a deep wound with something that could never heal it.

That’s how patterns form. A wound goes unacknowledged. A coping mechanism sneaks in. You don’t talk about it; you just survive. Years later, you can’t quite figure out why you react the way you do: why you pull away when people get close, why you burn through mentors, why you armor up and shut down when you feel disappointed or scared. At least that's what I did. Maybe you start people-pleasing to avoid abandonment. Maybe you overwork to outrun insecurity. Maybe you numb out when life gets overwhelming, or sabotage good things before they have the chance to slip away.

My counselor helped me see that this wasn’t random. It was a pattern. And I had to connect the dots of my current dysfunction with my past pain. Porn wasn’t just lust; it was misplaced comfort. Pushing people away wasn’t just anger; it was fear of being left again. The panic in my mind wasn’t just “weak faith”; it was a younger version of myself still terrified and un-comforted.

Here’s the good news: what’s concealed can’t be healed, but what’s revealed, God can heal.

Jesus doesn’t just want your “spiritual” life; He wants your whole story—your heart, mind, body, history, and patterns. Therapy, wise counsel, and honest reflection aren’t competitors to faith; they can be instruments of God’s healing in your life. The Greek word behind “healing” in Scripture (therapia) reminds us: God has always been in the business of deep restoration.

You’re not crazy for the way your pain has shaped you. It makes sense. But you also don’t have to stay stuck there. With awareness, compassion, and the Holy Spirit’s help, you can start noticing when “little you” is driving the bus and gently take their hand instead of letting them take the wheel.

Prayer:
Jesus, I invite You into my story, especially the parts I’d rather avoid. Show me where old wounds are shaping my present reactions. Give me the courage to face the truth with You, and to seek wise help where needed. Heal me where I don’t even know I’m hurting. Amen.

Today:
Ask God this simple question: “Is there any old hurt You want me to notice with You today?” Sit quietly for a couple of minutes. If a memory, moment, or feeling comes to mind, don’t judge it or try to fix it, just write down a sentence about it and end with, “Jesus, I invite You into this.”