Trusting God with Their Future

Letting go doesn’t mean checking out.

I had that backward for a long time. When people told me to “let go,” I equated it with stepping away from responsibility. But in 2021, that mindset collided with reality when my wife and I found out she was pregnant again.

To set the stage: In May 2020, we lost our daughter, Faith Mae. She was stillborn—nine pounds and perfect in every visible way. I remember holding her and pleading for her eyes to open. They never did. God chose to take her home instead of letting her come with us.

So when we learned another baby was on the way, I was overwhelmed with anxiety. Every appointment. Every ultrasound. Every pause in conversation. Fear took hold. I became hyper-controlling—scrutinizing every move, every decision. I thought I was being vigilant, but in truth, I was trying to play God.

My wife, though equally concerned, carried herself with grace and quiet trust. And eventually, I had to face the hard truth: my actions were saying, “God, I don’t trust You.”

I wouldn’t have said it out loud, but my behavior made it clear. I was angry. I was hurt. And I didn’t want to surrender again. But deep down, I knew—every breath I take is a gift. Every heartbeat of my children is a miracle I cannot manufacture. God had proven His faithfulness countless times, and I was letting one heartbreaking moment cloud my entire view of His goodness.

I wish I could say the anxiety went away, but it didn’t. I stayed on edge the entire pregnancy. But when I finally held my newborn daughter in August and heard her cry for the first time, I was flooded with gratitude—and a powerful reminder: God loves her even more than I do. Just like He loved Faith.

There’s so much outside our control as dads. But God chose us—on purpose—to lead our families in this life. Trusting Him doesn’t mean we walk away. It means we stay engaged, lead with courage, and rest in His sovereignty.

Every time one of my kids calls out “Daddy,” it’s a reminder that I’m still in the game. And I wouldn’t trade that for anything.

To you—dad, or future dad—I pray this journey has stirred something in you. Keep leaning into the faith. Keep showing up. You’re not just a guy raising kids. You’re the man God handpicked for the job. And I’m cheering for you every step of the way.

Reflection Questions:

1. How do you respond when control starts slipping through your hands?
2. Are your actions saying “I trust God” or “I’ve got this”?

Thank You

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