While I am young...
I'm going to have to make this quick; I have work at 4am tomorrow and its already 11:22. Yikes. Today was my 20th birthday and it was a little depressing. My work schedule locked me in for 12 hours of work (and not the rewarding kind of work, it was the tedious shoot-me-in-the-foot kind of work). So needless to say, I was not a happy camper. To make it even more interesting, I got (emotionally) sucker-punched in the face during dinner. Its never a nice feeling when you find out that you've been lied to by the people you trust the most. But there is an upside to this story: I had cake with my family late at night. Yay :D
I can already hear your thoughts..."What is with this whiny girl and her cake? Get to the point already!" And to that I say, "patience, young grasshopper. :)"
My uncle gave me this verse for my birthday when we were eating cake, and it sort of lead to some self-reflection. "Keep your Creator in mind while you are young..." I'm hoping 20 is still considered young...cause the 19-year-old me sure didn't keep God in mind. I've been struggling? (can't really call it a struggle if I don't put up a fight? I sort of just drifted...) with just getting close to God. I just felt really lethargic in regards to anything related to Him. Prayer, devotion, service, etc...It wasn't due to a traumatic incident or anything like that...it was just a gradual decline. I attended Bible Study Fellowship in the beginning of the year in hopes that I could just sit back and attend and be magically "revived" somehow. Some miracle zap or something. Nope. Of course not. (Hindsight is always 20/20) I didn't put in any effort, and obviously didn't keep God in mind. So my relationship with God got even more distant...prayers got shorter and shorter until they disappeared for the month of April/May 2012.
It wasn't till this week (through a bunch of little things/reminders) that I firmly decided I'm going to start off my 20's on the right foot (right as in right/wrong, not right/left...tho i suppose I did wake up with my right foot this morning as well :P). Even though stupid work schedules and finding out about barefaced lies were part of my day today...I'm going to try and restart devotions/prayer, try to keep in Him in mind for at least 30 minutes a day. Praying that He'll help me with this...I don't want to know what life "burdened by troubles" will be like, but I'm pretty sure its a lot tougher than university applications and GPAs...and I'm definitely sure it'll be impossible without Him by my side. :D
*Its 12:34am...I'm definitely gonna need God, and probably several pots of coffee in order to survive hahahaha I wonder if 3 hours of sleep counts as a "sleep" or a "nap"? hahahahaha :DD Sleep deprived = delirious-ness. @_@
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