1I am disgusted with my life. # Jb 7:16; 9:21; Ps 95:10; 119:158; 139:21; Ezk 6:9; 20:43; 36:31
I will express my complaint
and speak in the bitterness of my soul.
2I will say to God:
“Do not declare me guilty!
Let me know why You prosecute me.
3Is it good for You to oppress,
to reject the work of Your hands, # Ps 128:2
and favor # Lit shine on the plans of the wicked? # Ps 1:1; Jb 21:16; 22:18
4Do You have eyes of flesh,
or do You see as a human sees?
5Are Your days like those of a human,
or Your years like those of a man, # Jb 36:26; Ps 90:4; 2Pt 3:8
6that You look for my wrongdoing # Jb 13:23,26; 14:17; 22:5
and search for my sin,
7even though You know that I am not wicked
and that there is no one who can deliver from Your hand? # Dt 32:39; Is 43:13
8“Your hands shaped me and formed me. # Gn 2:7,8,19; Ps 34:15; 94:9; Is 29:16; 43:1,7,21; 44:2,21,24; 45:9,11; 49:5; 64:8; Jr 1:5; 18:6; Zch 12:1
Will You now turn and destroy me?
9Please remember that You formed me like clay.
Will You now return me to dust? # Gn 2:7; Jb 4:19; 34:15
10Did You not pour me out like milk
and curdle me like cheese?
11You clothed me with skin and flesh,
and wove me together with bones and tendons. # Ps 139:13
12You gave me life and faithful love,
and Your care has guarded my life.
13“Yet You concealed these thoughts in Your heart;
I know that this was Your hidden plan: # Lit was with You
14if I sin, You would notice, # Lit notice me
and would not acquit me of my wrongdoing. # Ex 34:7; Jb 7:21; Am 3:2
15If I am wicked, woe to me!
And even if I am righteous, I cannot lift up my head.
I am filled with shame # Hab 2:16
and aware of my affliction. # Jb 9:15; Ps 25:18; Is 3:11
16If I am proud, # Lit If he lifts up You hunt me like a lion
and again display Your miraculous power against me. # Jb 5:9; Is 38:13; Lm 3:10
17You produce new witnesses # Or You bring fresh troops against me
and multiply Your anger toward me.
Hardships assault me, wave after wave. # Lit Changes and a host are with me
18“Why did You bring me out of the womb? # Jb 1:21; 10:18-19; Jr 20:17-18
I should have died and never been seen.
19I wish # Lit As if I had never existed
but had been carried from the womb to the grave. # Jb 3: 22; 5:26; 17:1
20Are my days not few? Stop it! # Alt Hb tradition reads Will He not leave my few days alone?
Leave me alone, so that I can smile a little
21before I go to a land of darkness and gloom, # Jb 3:5;12:22; 28:3
never to return.
22It is a land of blackness like the deepest darkness,
gloomy and chaotic,
where even the light is like # Lit chaotic, and shines as the darkness.”